learn to be alone

Today, I have a little bit sad because I feel that I lose all my friends. I not really sure when they suddenly treat me so cruel and cool. I know that sometimes are because of my emotion and sham character. But I feel that it is my personal character that I have since the past 18 years, why I need to change myself. Yes! We do not need to change ourselves to make others happy. Just be ourselves, do what we like and enjoy the life.

We born as a unique creature, why we need to follow how others want us to live. We have our own life to survive. When we follow others' will, we will only become the person that others want us to be. Then what the differences between us and the doll.

Actually, you won't feel alone when started to learn something and do something. But remember not keep swiping your personal app to spend your whole day. It just a waste of time, and at the end, people will feel that you are useless and weak. You need to learn something useful and good for yourselves. For examples, learn how to have a public speaking, learn how to think, learn how to solve questions, learn the syllabus of the academic first and so on. 

One day, when you can prove your ability, you can find friends. Maybe just friends of benefits that need your help, but they may also come with true-hearted. No matter what, the facts proved that friends will only come when you have the ability or you are useful to them. Although it was sad, but it is just a fact that can't be changed,  just accept it. 

But before you get that level, just learn to be alone. Enjoy it and don't feel that you are "special" or lonely because sometimes lonely is better than friends that take advantage of you.